blue as red

here i sit
pondering about the things i did
thinking about my heart
and my beliefs

my heart defied my beliefs
my heart overcame me
my heart is happy but amor is not
i am hereby crappy though i know that i'm not

i don't know how to make it end
i don't know why i did it
crap!what has become of me??
i don't know who i am anymore

i forgot everything i said before
i cannot say it once more
as soon as it rains i'll die
alone in this noble heart of mine

no one has been that good
i thought about it when i sin
but then again i cried
sliver as i wound my self

i don't know more to say
i lost amor already
her heart ate her alive
she can't anymore breathe.