3rd from the 1st

its been our third month since our anniversary.. and it was a fun yet weird night.. haha.. anyways.. i'll update this as soon as i get my urge to write again.. :p

a morning night..

i can feel it crawling in my skin..
morning i can't await dawn..
as it awaits me to it's feet..
the coldness of the summer breeze...
befall my longing tears..
my hands shaking in every inch..
i curl up in dreams..
rest is my plead..
rest me in your arms tonight..
and forever..
let them be..
and let them swallow their vain words as well..
i long for my sanctuary to come and have me..
have me lie in his arms..
as it would've been the sweetest sin..
pleasing as a dream..
and let them fall on their letters..
vanity is subdued within..
let it be and let us be..

conflict

as the flower rips the scene with it's torns..
a heart ponders more as it cleans it's wounds
such torns the flower has were cut by thee heart
then there came a wind
a wind that hushed a light phrase of hope
that such passion shall endure the test of time..
unsure though the flower is...
thee heart of the forlorn soldier..
minimized the agony of the confused flower
thus, resulting to trust..
then again will they have their wind act to as the fire would..

almond

hay kahapon grabe...

unang beses ata un na bad3p xa

tapos mega drama sakin na bkt daw ang kanyang shoti ay napapasaya ako ng inde sinasadya.. hmmm.... anyways...


basta i'm happy na he is uber happy... aun... 4 sure kakalkalin nanaman nea blog ko

tsk tsk tsk.... crap.. i miss him a lot...

uly 25 '08

kanina, inde ko napancn na nakatulog na ako sa balikat nea.... sobrang narelax ako... inde kasi maxadong mganda pakiramdame ko kanina eh, buong araw masakit ulo at katawan ko... mejo hirap din ako huminga... tapos sabe sa clinic ang baba daw ng BP ko... 90/60, malay ko ba kung anu ibig sabihin nun... basata lam ko pagod na ako... aun...

ung ninang ng shobe ko epal... panigurado ipagkakalat nun na nakita nea kami sa bus na naghaharutan... and she'll make a huge fuss over it... w/c i hate the most about people!!! tae cla.... hmmm.... the day wasn't so good pero masaya ako nung nihatid nea ako... kasi prang alang kayang manakit sakin pag kasama ko xa. prang ang safe safe ko pag nakabalunbun ako sa kanya.... tapos kanina ang cute cute nea tignan pag nikukulit nea ako... tapos ang sarap pakinggan ng tawa nea.... hehehehe... mejo nababaliw na ata ako eh.....

tae talaga ang tax... susme, alang nakapasa kahit isa... napakahirap naman kasi eh... anyways, babawi ako next time...

kanina din habang nagtravel kame.. naikwento ko sa kanya ung mga paranormal gifts ko... aun kala ko prang mabobore xa.. pero grabe... nakakagulat dahil sobrang concerned xa about sakin... grabe talaga.... prang sobra xang nagaalala... aun... wala lang nakakatuwa lang sobra... lalo na nung nakangiti lang xa habang nilalandi nea ako... hehehehe.....

blue as red

here i sit
pondering about the things i did
thinking about my heart
and my beliefs

my heart defied my beliefs
my heart overcame me
my heart is happy but amor is not
i am hereby crappy though i know that i'm not

i don't know how to make it end
i don't know why i did it
crap!what has become of me??
i don't know who i am anymore

i forgot everything i said before
i cannot say it once more
as soon as it rains i'll die
alone in this noble heart of mine

no one has been that good
i thought about it when i sin
but then again i cried
sliver as i wound my self

i don't know more to say
i lost amor already
her heart ate her alive
she can't anymore breathe.

hurt

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face

You told me how proud you were but I walked away

If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms

I would take the pain away

Thank you for all you've done

Forgive all your mistakes

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To hear your voice again

Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit

Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss

You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?

Would you help me understand?

Are you looking down upon me?

Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To have just one more chance

To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself

If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that

I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous

It's so out of line to try to turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself

By hurting you

- here i go again.. nasaktan ko nanaman xa..

wala talaga akong kadala dala.. wala akong pinakakalakhan.. lage ko na lang xang cnasaktan, pinaiiyak dahil sa mga kagagahan ko.. tae.. cguro nagsisisi xa na ako ung naging gf nea.. nakakahiya.. naiinis ako sa sarili ko.. prang tanga talaga ako.. kung pwede ko lang ibalik ung oras.. sana pla inde ko na xa inabala.. tutal ako lang naman ung nagsabe na maging kame eh.. dapat pla inde ko un cnabi, pra inde ko na xa nasaktan, nangako pa naman ako na inde ko xa sasaktan tapos ganito ung ginagawa ko??napakawalang kwenta ko talagang gf, i caused him too much pain na, i think it'll be better if i'd let him go.. cguro he's not the one for me, maxado kaxe akong mapanakit eh.. inde ko kaxe maalis sa sistema ko ung pagiging brutal ko ng walang kadahidahilan, hmmm.... nung nalaman ko na nasaktan ko xa.. sobrang nasaktan ako, prang dinudurog ung puso ko.. tae, kaya nga ba ayaw kong magmahal eh, hmm... hanngang d2 nlang... aun... i don't want to hurt him anymore, kelangan ko na xang ilet go.. i have to fix myself, to fix my heart..